one week to go

so this week has been huge...

in terms of hours as well as accomplishments...

and the really interesting part is that i realized when I woke up this morning... my usual time between 530 and 6am... that I was really tired... i stayed in bed until 715... so i am really looking forward to some sleep!!

and relaxation... maybe a pool!!

so this week... i presented two clients and in the audience... well let me go back...

there are about 40 students in the class, dr. lad, and panchakarma clients... so the room is full and there is 90 minutes dedicated to my presentation of my client with my client in the room... it is a bit nerveracking because not only is it a bit of a testament to what one understands in front of our teacher who is a true master ... so you can imagine that one would think to present the easier cases that one has worked on... well, as some of you may have figured out over the years, I am rarely one to make things simple... My bright idea was to choose the clients that needed the experience the most... that is to say my most difficult cases...

so

on monday I presented a woman who was quite a difficult case and then on tuesday when i came in this group of panchakarma clients from florida where quite complimentary as were certain of my fellow students... and when the florida people heard that i was presenting on wednesday evening they said that they wanted to come back to listen... and they did... and they invited me to florida to do lecture and consultation... wow... so that is interesting... we shall see what comes of it...

i have one week of classes to go and this weekend i decided that i really need a trip to santa fe.. to walk canyon road and look at a bunch of art!! i will finish at the tea house for a glass of wine... and just simply relax...

i really don't know that i will ever be able to put into words what the experience of learning with dr. lad is like... in fact this may be one of those experiences that no one could put into words... it is truely an experience that has no equal... and i feel very fortunate to be here doing this work...

Love

love is not the opposite of hate
love is not the opposite of anger
love is not the opposite of sadness
love is beyond these things
love is to look in that face of your boyfriend with compassion when they tell you they hate you
love to see the beautiful face of a woman
the innocent face of a child
the spirit of the mountain
and that mountain, that woman that child brings a tear to your eye

love is awareness ... expanded self
love is beyond self

love is in the gap
love is that which is in between the shadow and the wall...

pure awareness

there is no distinction or division between the observer and the observed

awareness is the painter whose brush, perception, creation and model are one

awareness is love

love is awareness

love is not attachment
love is not obsession
love has no criteria

love is compassion
love is awareness
and love is allowing everyone to be who they are

love is

taking my own advice

So I was walking last night with a friend who last year had dropped the program...He was in town for a weekend seminar... He is going through a really difficult thing and to be honest, I can't say I didn't warn him. But, at any rate, we all have to go through a bit of darkness before we can frolic in the sunshine... So I recommended that he start creating his own space online by publishing his thoughts in a blog, much like this one. It is a brilliant idea and I started this last october to let people know what was going on and explain a bit of what i am doing with this crazy ayurveda stuff... and at some point, it became too complicated to explain all of this stuff and I became too busy and blah blah blah and my writing for the most part stopped. So, I made an agreement with myself. I am going to continue with my blog... in the way i intended so many months ago... and i believe that now it will be easier as i am assimilating this stuff so much more deeply and fully.

And it is a good exercise for explaining things outside of my current vernacular. So, this also means that questions are welcome... just attach them in the comments... and i will start to answer them...

I am seeing clients and up until now I have 2 regular yoga clients per week and five full ayurvedic clients and i am faced with having too many clients for the program and that is okay :)

Also I realized something a week or two ago... and it is this... people are sick... and i have agreed to recommend them to an MD when I see a need for referal... I have spotted one case of diabetes that i believe will be considered minor once tested. and this is the beauty of ayurveda... very early detection... there is still a major possibility that this can be managed and healed... but it also means that next weekend, I am to tell a woman that I believe she should be tested for diabetes. hmmm.. forgot that where mostly i am in these relationships with clients who are improving... the other edge of that sword is the side where there is an issue... and i have to tell them.

I have also located a case of fibromyalgia and the nice thing is that I can also provide the treatment protocol for what is called vata pushing pitta in mamsa dhatu...

this is our language of pathogenesis... vata pushing pitta into mamsa dhatu... what that means is that the movement principle (air/space) of the body is pushing the transformation (fire/water) principle in to the muscle tissues. This is of course not the only manifestation of the vata pushing pitta paradigm in the body and mind... but we are taught to treat both the root cause of the imbalance as well as the manifestations of the imbalance.

hmm... i am writing to you from the top of the mountain... in fact i am at a startbucks located across from a green space that shows views of prehistoric volcanoes a hundred or so miles away... the cumulus clouds are nestled comfortably overhead. They may in fact be stratocumulus perlucidus clouds... I do not know... but that reference is a tipping of the hat to my dear friend jerry... I started looking the terms up after our chat...

the winds are steady and the day has a tremendous calm... we could say the doshas, vata pitta kapha are in good harmony for this climate... :)


ciao for now...

but take a walk out your front door and allow yourselves to be in the environment... see that all that there is is part of you... you are a microcosm of this cosmic macrocosm